Saying Goodbye.

Sometimes in life there are times when one has to say goodbye. I think that I have reached one of those moments in my life.



Sometimes life now, it is extremely hard to let go. Maybe it is because I am so use to having this person in my life and I have grown to be comfortable. After all it was two years that I had this person in my life. Maybe I should start  to let go because it is only causing me more pain to hold on. It seems that I harder I hold and looser my grab on my emotions and mind become..

This is even starting to affect my school life. I am finding myself thinking that other things are more important when in reality I know that school is one of the most important things in my life right now. It only comes second to my health. Even that right now seems to now be doing so well. I have been so stressed and I can not sleep at night. When I finally do fall asleep if I get woken up I will not be able to get back to sleep.

I know that I right thing to do for myself is to let go. Then why are my feels pulling me a different why? Why is it so hard?

Its kind of funny when I think about it because I know that no matter what months from now I will not feel this way. I know that I will be okay. It will probably suck when I think about it but the pain will not be there.


That's the great thing about pain. It can never reappear like sadness or happiness, when you think back on a memory or an event. It is because pain is only a temporary thing.

Anatomy test! AHHHHHH!

I am so nervous about my anatomy times that is about an hour away! I really do not know if I am going to do so way on this test. But honestly it is totally my fault, I fell really far behind and should have realized it. Instead I though that going out with my friends was more important or my boyfriend troubles.

Now I realize that I am really going to have to change in order to be as successful as I plan on being. My plan in order to do this is find at least two hours a day to study or do homework. I also need to start leaving notes for myself to help me remember to get things done on  time.

I am also going to start reading the chapters in my textbook. My plan is to read through the chapter that is going to be lectured about in the next class. I also plan to make sure I print out the power point at least the day before the class that way I will have time to look it over. I'll right back before Thursday that way I can keep myself accountable.

Call of Duty

I do not understand what is so great about Call of Duty!

I know there are many people that will disagree and say that this is one of the most amazing games ever created. However I think it is a huge waste of time. I never seen the evils and how it is so appealing to its lovers.

I think is also so funny how people can get so worked up about the game. I do not know how many times I have watched my friends play and they die, first words after this happens is always "bullshit." or the famous "glitch."

The lovers of this game sometimes agree how there are many benefits to playing games like Call of Duty. For example, it improves reaction time. This is the only things that I might agree with in the opposing argument. I will not agree with the thought that it helps improve problem solving skill. How the heck does shooting someone solve a problem.

Well any ways hope I do not offend anyone but Call of Duty I still believe is a big waste of time. Just saying.

Random thoughts.

How does one describe a color to someone who is blind and always has been?

There are so many things that everyone associates with colors with out even thinking about it. For example, the color red is tired with a hot temp or being angry. The reason behind this has to be something nurture rather than nature thing.

Someone that is blind must not associate those things with colors because how could they! Without growing up seeing the red angry face and the sad blue face, one can not possible make that connection. I can not fathom not being able to see color but knowing that it is something every real to the majority of the world.

Any ways, back on topic. When trying to describe a color to some one that is blind I believe that the best has to be through texture. After all one of the main things that a seeing impaired person uses to "see" is touch.

Blue would be smooth and cool like water.

Red would be thick and hot.

Green is fresh and springy.

White is soft and fluffy.

However, a lot of these examples rely on whether the person understand the references. I wonder how life would be different without sight. I wonder how trusting a seeing impaired person is. I wonder how much life is missed out on, in that never ending darkness. Yet I wonder what others are truly missing out on that they are experiences every day of their life.

Life without sight would be interesting. To have everyone on the same "playing field." To be able to truly hold everyone as equal because there are not other things like some ones appearance holding them back.